my life was sweeter than the clementines...

I remember exactly that day , the day when I took this photo

I remember how o felt inside at that very moment. 

He was still alive . I was in peace and full of joy 

It was a sunny day, before taking a nap ( I usually sleep after school )  I went to the kitchen to eat something and I took this clementines wile talking to him  (who knows me,  know I'm crazy for fruits) 

I was also listening to the music and looking at his photo ( the minipolaroid) and  I just put this things together thinking that those are things that makes me happy, as simple as that, those few little things, chating with M , our favorite music and his photo to make me feel him near,  my 2 passions : photography and fruits.

  it was enough to make me happy, to make me feel rich

For real  I was ectremely happy inside, so happy, so so very happy worlds can't even describe but

you know that feelings when your that happy that you talk to a voice inside you.

 I was saying  " wow I'm really blessed he is mine and I'm living the time of my life happily " 

this is how I felt.

Now I'm not at peace until I'm asleep. cause when I sleep I do not feel  but waking up always brings the misery of being without him

Everything is different now

Don't you know you inspire me, you're a flower and i'm a bee.. i need you

  my love, I already talked about it ( go to link) he wanted to become a photographer I will fulfill his dream (I will try) 

I always was obsesed and I kept posting everyday on my facebook, flickr ...etc now I'm not posting anymore cause you know since I met him everything I did and post was for him, I wanted to share everything with him, waiting till he will comment or like it. now everything just dont make sense. nothing make sense.

I will try and start posting again our memories, my photos, my daily occupation, what inspire me , things we wanted to do. I know he would love me to do this, cause he always told me he can't wait till I'll post something new and interesting. So... I don't know..... hm

....................................................... I said nothing make sense, even what im saying do not make sense......

drunk ps. I love you