your words I need to hear that always get me through the day. I miss you

 there is nothing that could make me smile nothing besides seeing stuff like this. seeing his pretty face

I love you M

you have no idea how i miss talking to him, i miss him. it.hurts.so.bad

I was so used to wake up and get message from him. He was always in my mind and i mean it... HE REALLY WAS ALWAYS IN MY MIND.
After school I remember one day  while climbing the stairs  (and like always already trying to connect my phone with the wifi from my apartment to see if he is online) I was climbing with a giant step on those stairs being the happiest girl alive ... I was so impatient to talk to him.    suddenly find myself on the floor above mine.  I just start smiling because it really looked so ridiculous/funny, i thought " oh mark what you do to me "
 I can't explain what he does to me. Forget butterflies, he gave me pterodactyls.
Once i was home checking facebook messages I always found a sweet message he wrote me while i was at school, that made my days every day.
I used to watch simpsons after school  cause M wasnt always online because of the timezone....... The simpson,my favorite cartoon that  sometimes  gave me happy tears when homer says sweet phrases to marge it made me get teary eyes cause all the times i pictured me and my love M living toghether and beeing a family.

I remember when i told him that i sometimes cry while watching simpson he was like " oh really?you are the sweetest thing baby i never heard this before haha "  (when he came to visit me he brought me this >>>>DUFF  )

     im now doing the same things but everything is different now. im not happy to come home, i have no one to be impatient to talk to , no one is waiting me, no one care the way he did, the only thing that doesnt change is he is always in my mind,always in my mind just in different way. 

 i know all this are just  little things but they mean so much to me because everything he made, gave to me was made with love, from him.

listening now

 

Well this is my second post, i dont really know what to say Im starting this blog so i can share with everyone the love we had/still have in our heatrs now and forever. Im not really sure if this blog is a right thing to do ( i mean tell everyone my feelings) it just came to my mind and im just doing it.I'm not a good writer at all (expecially in english)  but I will  try I will just write what i feel ....

My goal is  to remind you to apreciate every moments in your life and to let everyone you love how much you love them. Because you never know how life can turn and you might  be late. I also want you to stop complaining everyday  about your life and to think how really happy and how beautiful life is, just think about it..   .... life is beautiful when you have someone to love and most of all to have someone who loves you the best they can.


 Most of the times i thought my life sucks and i was an idiot , only now  I realized my life was picture perfect (because of you my love M) till that day, till march 14.
  
My boyfriend went to haven on Wednesday, March 14, 2012. My heart is bleeding , it's broken, everything and everyone around me is different now, i feel like the world is a bad place without him . I feel so empty inside............
i have tears   .... and i think i will stop writing for now.

M&M   

 This blog is about the love that made me the happiest i ever been. and about one thing that destroyed me.